I joined.....11 clubs.....11!!!!

I also told liann that I missed her, which apparently she was really missing me and she acted her complete liann self "<3 omg I miss you too but I can't talk I have to study" but w/e I didn't expect much different. and would never get my hopes high.

tommarrow I'm going home on maddies bus. I have to go see the lady in question. but at least i'll be out of house.

I still have to write sentences and read plato. there is no qrt tomarrow so i must must must do it.my parents are not going to open house. i don't think they ever have. but then again i don't expect anything from them either. nor anyone else. I can't anymore.

I miss lance as well. I want to know what it would have been like if i hadn't moved and gone to kerr how would life be different...

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I don't expect anything from matt. I son't expect anything from anyone. and love? love can suck it. love can be a little montauge and nothing else. love is overused and completely abused.

its a mad world.

don't comment on this. this is for me. if you don't know what i'm talking about well you have two choices either care or don't. I'm not danielle and I"m not looking to spill problems onto others.

my sore throat was almost gone all day then came back with a vengence a couple hours ago. misery misery can't you see sometimes your words just hipnotize me.

well i'm back from deepcreak next weekend i'm enviting kaitlin. I know she likes it a lot.

25 dollers are missing and my dad said "well kirsten you have always been so cavilier" meaning that I don't care about anything. omg I wanted to shoot him I'm a money freek and he blaimes me for "not caring enough to be reszponsible" fuck him. My mom screwed me over in field hockey then blaimed me.. She didn't even know where the paper was because she is so disorganized and its my fault that I couldn't walk to the hs and diliver it? wtf I didn't HAVE A PAPER TO DILIVER. And guess why she couldn't find it??? oh because shes mapping out a vacation for my cousins (whom no one really likes) on my comp. FOR TWO HOURS. and its my fault?? then my dad has the odasity to call my two issues both my fault but he then starts bitching about my mom and how shes always late and always messy and blah bolah blah blah I'm a teenager mom dad I am not the mediator for your marrage problems. I don't always need to be reminded how spoiled I am, or how rude i am, or how horrible of a child I am for a messy room or not listening to you. OH yeah I just get practically stright a's and never get in trouble...but yeah I can see how I"m such a dissapointment in your eyes, sure. My dad thinks I have no problems hah he says I don't have the right to complain, all my friends are such worse off that nothing that could possibly happen to me equals. WOW he dosn't know me at all, at all. Then again neither really does anybody. two words, two names really. and no one would know anything about them. yeah i have no problems dad I live the perfect little life. thanks

I'm not expecting any coments on this i dont really care. comment on other happier ones w/e

Its surprising how much of that song I can remember! I just got back from a week in deepcreak and tommarrow I'm leaving to go to new jersey (I mispelled that at first and wrote jew jersey hahaha) then I'll be back on thrusday and be leaving again for deepcreak. Theres a spot if anyone wants to spend the weekend down there. Anywayssssss I got a new haircut and Its hard to keep looking nice lol but people keep telling me its cute. I drove home with anth and It was interesting .... our max speed was 100mph. lol *sweatdrop and my dad Almost hit a blackbear over by nemocolin woodlands. ooooooo I have so much to talk about but chappells sho is on XD, write more later!

I'm watching a anime called loveless, its really quite good. Its a yaoi apparently but other than a kiss scene it really isn't "gay" lol. I know I know I'm on a gay and lesbian kick cause I watched "but I"m a cheerleader" earlier which was halarious, now all I need is heathers "I love my dead gay son" and maybe some big gay al. Its 2:22, make a wish!

I'm watching stick it on you tube, ah the illegalness of it all lol this is the dialougue "dude why do you always have to bite my muffin?? Does it taste good or something??" "delicious" wow j pop is my anti anti drug right now. so high

Well friday is the set day for locks for love.OH which reminds me I have to call andrea before she leaves for camp. crap. Anyways ack my hair will be short. my dad is leaving for the day, my mom is in nj and my bros at work so once again i have to take care of sophie grumble. Both the rents gave me loooooong to do lists. arg. but all i really want is to go out with maddzilla. Multi-tasking can suck my ass. oh yeah and sat. apparently i'm going back down to deepcreak. i think summer just killed me.

This is a little experiment I preformed on google. I typed in "kirsten needs" and hit search. these are the first 4 links it came up with lol

Kirsten needs (first link) to dirty it ... (second) to nurse for more than just food; and trying to wean now would be devastating for her (third)warm winter clothing, summer outfits, and lots of pretty outfits for school. (forth)Kirsten Dunst needs a damn good orthodontist...

BUT I HAVE ONE ALREADY!!!(the last one reminded me of marice)

oh btw BENNY BENASSI why do you torment me soooooo!

My teeth are now built stronger, faster, better!!!(visited dr. king today). Then we went to giant eagle out in cranberry..or somewhere. Then we stopped at a nursery where my mom and the store lady proceded to argue and fight. Mom stormed out and I picked up her keys and walked out after. heh. Andrea will be comming over soon. ooooo maryann found a baby frog *runs to look* what? I'm in a 10 year old mood. sniff

I'm back from deepcreak and I actually didn't mind it as much as usual, infeact dare I say that I was nostalgic. My idiotic neighborghs put in a huge house and took so many trees down. Remember how there used to be a 360 of woods from the driveway, well 90 degrees is now a peach monstorsity...then I found out it was there garage! They actually built their garage BEFORE their house and the garage is bigger then our cabin. I swore to maddie that I'd teapee(sp?) it. We also found bear tracks up a tree five feet away from the house...Oh yes and the part of the dock where you walk out onto where the boats are kept was submerged in water. I called it my moat and was amused as ducks swam across our dock. hehehe (the actual part with the boats was the castle) The speedboat got a new prop making it run faster then ever. Oh yes, and gues what?? while sitting on my castle I saw something in the water. It was a head on a dog as It swam in the middle of the lake. Thats odd I thought....where was its owners? As it came closer to my side of the shore I relised it wasn't a dog at all but a deer. WTF^^??? what kind of deer decides to swim, yes swim, the english channel by itself for no reason when boats are wizzing past it??? Let alone the fact the omg deer swim at all? then It got out looked at me and ran away......O_O.While I was down there I completely finished this incredibly weird book. I loved the ending, it was slightly random. basically this husband and wife are talking about this guy named tom's murder. husband:how do you think he died, wife: well you two were in a bussiness of trade with mobsters (i'm summerizing if you cant tell it was actually writting in 1700 english) and he was out on a mission. husband: but.....but that means I sent him to his death>????? wife:......ug......or he could have been killed from offending the nobility.... husband:.....yes that must have been it....mousillinie must hand killed him so I must kill mousilllinie. wife: *That'll do, I love my husband, and thats the end of that matter*
wtf^^ lol

I had to make a lot of annoying phone calls today. One particularly was filled with akward silences. He says I've changed from my free spirited and synical self, I say there is nothing left to be synical about with him. I don't think he gets the fact that people run out of things to say to eachother especially over the phone. Everything gets so normal and similar. I might have changed... but no one can tell apart from him so what does it matter.

I had a conversation with my dad in the car ride home. He does not help at all. Basically he feels for all of my friends "they all have such hard lives" I know this I talk to them "We weren't rich enough to have problems when I was growing up" The amount of money does not make someone have issues, "I didn't say that" yes you did "don't put words in my mouth" everyone has issues ***silence**** "you don't" .....I have everyone elses and mine "you don't have and issues you have the perfect life, you get everything you want, your so spoild." no I don't "name something you havn't gotten" I could names toms of things and most would be not materialistic things at all.but if I say something he'll get pissed. I have issues, wow he dosn't know me at all. but If I say that I do he'll want to know what. And knowone gets to know what.

Anyways I just got a reply from dan to a message I sent 6 mounths ago. It was very strange and had absolutely no personality in it. ugg I don't want to answer it in one night...But I think i'll be seeing him tommarrow with the family so conversation i guess is unavoidable. I hate when people remind you that you are a kid still. but then again sometimes thats what you really need.(just not in this case)

I promise to spend this week with my friends as much as possible I miss everyone.

I was standing, you were there. Two worlds collided.

YOur walk talks and your talk talks but your walk talks louder than your talk talks. Reason will not teach you solution I will end up lost in confusion. I don't care if you really care. There will be a change and yes things will get strange, I'm trying to re-arrage you. There is really nothing I can do to make too. But hey it could be you. Pretend to leave but don't hold whats left in the wake of wonder. Stay.

lalalalaaaaa

Last night andrea stayed over and she decided I was so sexy her pants got wet enough to flood the world!!! We then had to build an arc and take all the animals, casi, and liann which counted as the guy and sail. and sail.....wait wait theres more! once the world unflooded everything was crusty from andreas wetness and that was called a dessert! Some how liann got impregnated by a gazzelle and abby the evil christian groundhog showed up trying to stop liann having an abortion. But since the baby was a by product of beastiality abby act the child (actually its the same as an abortion....) killing liann in the process. Casi ate lianns ashes and andrea was so turned on that the world flooded again. casi and kirsten got fed up and sent andrea on a rocket to another galexy. the end!!!

Today was a sleeping day. I selpt. Also alex tauberg came over and we played games on the comp. forevers. Strong bad is so my home boy at this point. Tomarrows my last free day before lacrosse bootcamp. ouchizzzzzz. kiss kiss bang bang.

I just watched the best christian slater movie ever (well maybe except heathers.....and interveiw with a vampire.....well top three) and there was moonlit christain slater butt, wow I do go for the psycopaths (jake jillinhall). It was the first movie ever writtin by quintin terintino so it was so him-styled and had the best background music ever.
I'm on aim chatting with andrea, maddie, and holly. ^_^ its been a long time since I've really been on. Anyway tommarrow I'm going over maddies house (i think i'll bring true romance) I swear its goinng to be fun. lol I havn't spent time with them in for ever. it will be fun of yes it will. hahahaha. Anyways andreas apparently drawing a comic with me in it. I'm sure it will be halarious and I will be gitting hit by something lol. I post another after this lol.

i'm sleeping over here tonight I hope kaitlin comes and is all right. Currently my moms bringing over my toothbrush and my dirasic park comfurter because its hardcore.(and warm its rather cold all of a sudden. popsicles are yummy.and also hardcore...((going to go wait for the stuff))((back)) now is a time for sharades...>.< andrea just did an impersination of an "emo" and the "nazi party" mine were "thankyou for smoking" and "finding nemo" ....

Today was long, yeah even though I got up at 10. I've been over at marias graduation party for ....5 hours lol hahahaha (making fun of andrea) Andrea and I have retreated to her basement which was quickly infaltraited by midgits. Mean smelly midgits. (actually quite a few of them are taller then me but I don't know if I can swear on this yet....) At the moment I'm going to sleep over hopefully with a blanket this time *cries* Am I done? Idk. well...sure.